Woke up unable to move. The muscles in my back “pretzelized” in the night. The only position that was comfortable was lying down face up. So that’s what I did all day. My mind first started making a to-do list.
- Return the videos to the library
- Read this book
- Read that one
- Write my pages
- Go through magazines and catalogs
- Call this person
- Email that person
But I couldn’t move. So none of it happened. I laid there and conceded that laying there was all I was going to be doing. Then I laid completely still and completely awake for hours. A new list emerged.
- The beep of a truck in reverse
- My neighbor’s footsteps and keys jingling
- Her dog barking happily
- The roar of motorcycles and sports cars
- The hum of a hybrid
- A little girl telling her mom a story
- Hellish leaf blower
Near the end of the day I was able to prop myself up enough to take care of the morning pages, but only because I said I would. Not because I wanted to. But, I must admit, today’s morning pages were more fruitful than most. Perhaps it’s because I decided to forgo my list of things to do. This was a good lesson. To let go of the to-do list. Try it. It feels good.